March-ing On
It's Friday, and it's beautiful outside! I'm looking forward to the weekend. Right now, I have some plans to work tomorrow with the reading department, but that's the only thing on my plate. It's supposed to rain tomorrow... and Sunday... more's the pity, because I wouldn't mind going rollerblading in Galveston. Perhaps it's just as well that I stay home and do homework. Also, I tore down the wallpaper in my guest bath, so I need to spend some time painting and finishing that project, too.
I've noticed lately that I've begun VERY tentatively to start believing that the situation with the Hunky Latino is stabilizing. Our two month moratorium has come and gone... been gone for almost two weeks, even. After all of these months, I am finally losing my self-consciousness around him and am feeling more able to just being myself. I no longer monitor every single thing I say or review endlessly everything HE says. While a large part of me is still waiting for him to decide that he doesn't want me anymore, I am beginning to wonder about the wisdom of investing so much energy in it. The more relaxed I am, the easier things are between us both; I am beginning to really see that. When I AM myself, he can handle it... before, I was the one who couldn't take the risk, on some self-protective level, because it was my "self" from whom my husband walked away all-too easily. Understanding this much is progress. I am getting stronger. The divorce healing is happening. Maybe the more I heal, the better everything will continue to become.
I am considering inviting him to Dallas for Easter. He told me that he doesn't do a lot for Easter, but he might not get any time off, and he might not want to spend the weekend in Dallas. However, I'll bring it up when the time seems good, and I'll see what he says.
I became an aunt on February 21, and my very first nephew is growing like a weed! My brother and sister-in-law are over the initial hump of adjustment and seem to adore their new baby boy. My parents are, as well, utterly besotted with him. I'm slated to become his godmother, and I am very honored... I will travel home in the coming months to perform my godmotherly duty.
I've noticed lately that I've begun VERY tentatively to start believing that the situation with the Hunky Latino is stabilizing. Our two month moratorium has come and gone... been gone for almost two weeks, even. After all of these months, I am finally losing my self-consciousness around him and am feeling more able to just being myself. I no longer monitor every single thing I say or review endlessly everything HE says. While a large part of me is still waiting for him to decide that he doesn't want me anymore, I am beginning to wonder about the wisdom of investing so much energy in it. The more relaxed I am, the easier things are between us both; I am beginning to really see that. When I AM myself, he can handle it... before, I was the one who couldn't take the risk, on some self-protective level, because it was my "self" from whom my husband walked away all-too easily. Understanding this much is progress. I am getting stronger. The divorce healing is happening. Maybe the more I heal, the better everything will continue to become.
I am considering inviting him to Dallas for Easter. He told me that he doesn't do a lot for Easter, but he might not get any time off, and he might not want to spend the weekend in Dallas. However, I'll bring it up when the time seems good, and I'll see what he says.
I became an aunt on February 21, and my very first nephew is growing like a weed! My brother and sister-in-law are over the initial hump of adjustment and seem to adore their new baby boy. My parents are, as well, utterly besotted with him. I'm slated to become his godmother, and I am very honored... I will travel home in the coming months to perform my godmotherly duty.
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