Well?

Every time I watch SuperNanny, I'm grateful that I don't have those problems. I don't know how people have children without going crazy. I know that all children aren't as difficult as on this television show, but at the same time, they're basically egocentric and uncooperative little people. I'd be frustrated constantly trying to raise one.

The Hunky Latino called me today... he's in Louisiana fighting a speeding ticket that he got when the two of us and a bunch of his relatives went gambling there about two months ago. I think he's staying there tonight, as a matter of fact. He knew I was at class when he called, but this time the call pleased me, unline another time when he called during class; then, it annoyed me, because I figured he knew I wouldn't be able to talk. This time, he knew, too, but he's out of town, and who knows what's up? Maybe that was his good chance before a poker tournament or something. He thought of me, and that pleased me.

I talked with A last night about the growth I think I've made. I told her about my conversation with M, the Hunky Latino's cousin, and the idea that I can't make anyone happy, and no one should have to make me happy. She reminded me that in happy relationships, the two people do strive to honor one another and please each other, support one another and build up each other, but the happiness part is not the other person's responsibility. The other person's job is support... comfort... confidence... companionship... collaboration. Not trying to generate happiness by meeting the other person's needs... which is what I think I've wanted from the HL to feel important and valued. I really set myself up expecting that from anybody... and backing off a little in my own head from expecting so much all the time made something like a simple phone call a gift, not a mild annoyance like it was before when the HL called me during class.

I'm still not winning the entire flea fight, but I'm working on it.